Stop existing and start living

This,

is the reason why I couldn't study with Mix today.

Had 14 dogs over at my place, and many other humans.

Haha, pics on FB - no patience to load here.

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Momma just came into my room to talk to me about Daryl (brother).

Apparently he talked to her about taking up another flute course with a private tutor,
in addition to his existing course with Yamaha.

I sorta think his case is similar to leigh's, somehow.

Of course, mom talked to him about coping and all,

and he confidently said, "Then I'll take it as having 2 ccas" (excluding his SJI band)

 

Mom told me about the stuffs she told him about,

like how I'm very strong academically,

how I'm sensible enough to check up on Universities and their bridging modules.

The conversation made my day (or more like, the remaining hours of the day),
because it has really been a while since I've last heard phrases.

I don't ever want mom to find out that I am actually struggling to promote.

Life's fantastic, it's all plastic

Mom and I just brought Toffee to the vet.

Her ligament snapped, so the doctor has to screw a hole in her bone,

and insert a fake ligament to be tied to her real one.

He should be doing so tomorrow.

Whenever I go to the vet's,

my passion for veterinary science would be at its highest.

Since I was Primary 2,

I've always wanted to be a vet.

The whole college course is on an average, 5 years.

And I'll have to go overseas.

I know Gee loves this idea, but I sorta want to stay in Singapore.

I'd rather, if I had a choice.

But what if,

what if I lose my interest halfway throughout the course?

What would I be, then?

All my life, I've only worked towards ONE goal.

If it's not suitable for me,

that's it.

I don't have a backup plan.

Moreover, I'll leave Yongyu, Sugar, and the rest of my family and friends behind.

Sugar will be 14 years old by the time i get back.

A dog doesn't live for too long.

Ugh, what's with this post anyway.